TY - JOUR
T1 - Becoming a Researcher
T2 - Navigating Messy Researcher Subjectivities
AU - Baker, Mandi
N1 - Publisher Copyright:
© 2020 Taylor & Francis Group, LLC.
Copyright:
Copyright 2020 Elsevier B.V., All rights reserved.
PY - 2020/12/8
Y1 - 2020/12/8
N2 - In the process of doing research, I have experienced being an insider and outsider, belonging and exclusion, and feeling messy while trying to look tidy on multiple levels and, often, all at once. While these experiences sharpened my critical awareness, these seemingly dichotomous subjectivities often went unresolved. This article draws on post-structural theory to investigate the challenges to and value in embodying and performing multiple researcher subjectivities. I explore the tensions of “insider” subjectivities as a person who did research in an industry I was and still am personally involved. I consider the challenges to being human and having feelings as a researcher. I discuss the value of reflexive and creative ways of presenting research. This article concludes with insights from Foucault’s approach to ethical care for the self that helped me make peace with the messiness of doing research and guides my beliefs in honoring research that resists traditional expectations.
AB - In the process of doing research, I have experienced being an insider and outsider, belonging and exclusion, and feeling messy while trying to look tidy on multiple levels and, often, all at once. While these experiences sharpened my critical awareness, these seemingly dichotomous subjectivities often went unresolved. This article draws on post-structural theory to investigate the challenges to and value in embodying and performing multiple researcher subjectivities. I explore the tensions of “insider” subjectivities as a person who did research in an industry I was and still am personally involved. I consider the challenges to being human and having feelings as a researcher. I discuss the value of reflexive and creative ways of presenting research. This article concludes with insights from Foucault’s approach to ethical care for the self that helped me make peace with the messiness of doing research and guides my beliefs in honoring research that resists traditional expectations.
KW - Emotions
KW - post-structuralism
KW - qualitative research
KW - reflexive methodology
KW - researcher subjectivities
UR - http://www.scopus.com/inward/record.url?scp=85097440503&partnerID=8YFLogxK
U2 - 10.1080/01490400.2020.1830896
DO - 10.1080/01490400.2020.1830896
M3 - Article
AN - SCOPUS:85097440503
VL - 43
JO - Leisure Sciences
JF - Leisure Sciences
SN - 0149-0400
IS - 3-4
ER -